there's a stain on my jacket i hope never washes out
there's a stain on my jacket i hope never washes out is a graphic-scored piece based around a poem I wrote around the time I broke up with my last partner.
The piece asks the performer(s) to navigate their way around a meandering map of notational material and aleatoric gestures, interposed in between a short melody based around the poem.
The performer(s) are free to recite the poem as they wish within the piece, although this is not required.
there's a stain on my jacket i hope never washes out is, in essence, a love letter for those scared of love letters: a bittersweet celebration for those you love, and have loved, but cannot love anymore.
There’s a stain on my jacket
I hope never washes out.
From when I spilled coffee
on one of our long winter walks.
And for a brief moment
it felt as if life was almost
I want to say that
I've not missed someone before they left
but that's a lie
because I miss you every day.
When we fall asleep
in each others' arms
for the last time in a long time
to think about
the good times.
Because despite the stamp
on my passport
I wish I could erase
the trappings of a life
that geography cruelly disregards
There's a place out there
suspended on a sunbeam
In the vast expanse
'there's a stain on my jacket i hope never washes out' was initially written for CODA Festival 2021 at Royal Birmingham Conservatoire, and performed by Seán Clancy on acoustic instrument and synthesizers.
The piece was subsequently reworked for Arc Project: Digital Ensembles for trio of violin, accordion, and conductor; this second version was premiered in July 2021 on the Arc Project YouTube channel.
The version of 'there's a stain on my jacket i hope never washes out' available for download below is the original arrangement for acoustic instrument and electronics.
CODA Festival 2021
Acoustic instruments, electronics - Seán Clancy
Arc Project: Digital Ensembles
Violin - Tilly Langford
Accordion - William Barnardo
Conductor (ronroco) - Zygmund de Somogyi
Premiered at CODA Festival on 15 June 2021,
and with Arc Project on 6 July 2021.
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